I do not dare to hope that I will have even the least of my conscience left to disagree with you for I have lost my right to claim my own conscience.The reason as I will state without any sheep's clothing is my own incompetence and impotence. To have been powerless and feeble against the tides of resentment of my own self for despising you; you who is serene and competent in every manner. I despise you because even in the stormiest nights during the thunder and lightening even a silhouette which imitates you makes me cry in despair; for redemption which is impossible to achieve. An atonement for my own sins- sins which were all but my own amorous desires. I loved you- yes I said it right- I still do but do not have the nerve to stand by you. I despoiled it with my own kinky audacity.
I am not a misogynist but a misogamist but neither am I an asinine who can't empathize with your holy emotions. It was my kinky audacity that accompanied me into this ordeal. And so when a silhouette appears with your imitation I cry with self hatred. Hatred of the self to be unable to restraint myself from the lowliest of all desires, which I myself despise. I am no more the man you loved or rather he never existed. But still though sinful I will scream with all conceit that-I loved you and still do. I do not know how this depravity engulfed me.
And now if you say- get out of my life- I will do my best not to hurt you anymore...
I am not a misogynist but a misogamist but neither am I an asinine who can't empathize with your holy emotions. It was my kinky audacity that accompanied me into this ordeal. And so when a silhouette appears with your imitation I cry with self hatred. Hatred of the self to be unable to restraint myself from the lowliest of all desires, which I myself despise. I am no more the man you loved or rather he never existed. But still though sinful I will scream with all conceit that-I loved you and still do. I do not know how this depravity engulfed me.
And now if you say- get out of my life- I will do my best not to hurt you anymore...